Well Dad phoned this morning to tell me that Mum will go into a hospice tomorrow. She has been getting progressively worse and I knew this was coming.
I worried about going away but was told that there was nothing I could do. If I was at home I'd be at work.
Dad was obviously very emotional when he rang but he just can't cope any more. He has been brilliant but she needs 24-7 care I told him not to feel guilty because there is nothing he can do.
I was a bit tearful and folk at work said go home but he has asked me not to and there is nothing I can do, I'd just sit and wait and wait. He has to make the decision and to be selfish and honest its much easier to cope at work.
So it is a case of preparing ourselves for the inevitable really.
I keep saying there is nothing I can do alot, you feel so flipping helpless.
Sorry for being a bit maudlin but I guess you understand I'm not feeling that chipper.